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This is me about a year and half ago, at about 240 lbs. Inside, I was deeply depressed and didn't care much about life. I was also a person that cared what the world thought about me and did not take criticism nor compliments well. Overall, I didn't possess a drop of confidence or self-esteem inside me. I honestly believed and even told myself that I was nothing, ugly and didn't even understand why people loved me. I had such a negative outlook on life and was pretty much a lost soul. I had the ability to pretend that everything was okay and that I somewhat liked who I was. Eventually, that became too much for my heart and brain. It was time to face myself in the mirror. I was sucking the life out of myself and didn't know what direction to go in.
I call the weight I put on "dead weight" because it's weight I put on from giving up on life and not really caring about myself (weight that needed to go!). I also put this weight on from being unhappy in previous relationships. Another point that I would like to mention, is that my negative attitude started to impact my loved ones. It even got to the point where many didn't want to be around me. The way I was living and my negative mind set, caused me to come to a point in my life where I was ready to turn my life around.
I started to see the light at the end of the tunnel...the light that I have been searching for, for so long. Almost two years later , after my weight jumping and down, I am a brand new, healthier and happier me, standing at a solid 190 lbs. To most females, this is not your typical weight goal to be jumping for joy about, however the first thing you need to remember is that not everyone is built the same. That was something else that I struggled with for a long time.
Society made it so important to be skinny. Not everyone is built that way and that is the first thing we must all accept. Not that there is anything wrong with being skinny, but it shouldn't be amplified as the only way to be attractive. This goes for males too! As you can see, I am a full figured woman. I have breasts, hips and thighs and they are not going anywhere! I had to accept that having these qualities are not a bad thing. I had to appreciate myself... that is when everything started to come together. Accepting that I have to work with what I have and mold myself into the person that I meant to be.
I am not going to sit here and tell you that I am completely where I want to be because I'm not. However, I will tell you this... I love myself more than I ever have and I'm learning to let go of all the negative, appreciate the positive and love myself for me! When you are happy with yourself and accept everything about you, you will be set free! You will begin to do things you never thought you could!We all have to remember, there is only one YOU and no one can take that away. So, embrace yourself and you will see how far it takes you!